Here's a whole bunch of poems I wrote this year. :) I have a lot of older ones, but I tried to find my newer ones.

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I have so much to say.
And yet
These pages are blank
My mind is racing when I have nowhere to put everything
But when I sit down to write
A wall goes up
It teases me
It mocks me
It takes away my memory of everything I was thinking about
As if those important thoughts were just fleeting
Just for the moment thoughts
Nothing to write about
But I do need to write them down
I need to express myself
I need to put the pieces of the puzzle together
My mind is working against me
It’s my enemy
It doesn’t want me to put the pieces together
It doesn’t want me to see things
It can’t hold me back from the truth
One day I’ll find the happiness I’ve been trying to piece together
Eventually I’ll pick these locks
But for now I’ll race to write down these fleeting thoughts.

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These things never work
I try and I try
But try as I might
I’m stuck here
Sitting here

I don’t want much of your time
I only want a conversation or two
A smile
A laugh
I think it’s too much to ask for

I don’t mean to be rude
But I want an answer
Are you staying or going
Will you join me
Or leave

I’ll leave it up to you
But I won’t wait forever
I’ll make exceptions
But I can’t keep hoping forever
It’s your choice.

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I’m going crazy here
Waiting
No way of knowing
Please whisper a word
I don’t want to have to wait
And wait
Just to get no reply
So I have to ask
And it scares me
I ask and get a reply
But only to what I ask
It’s a vague reply
It leaves me wondering more
Chewing my hair
Fidgeting
I just want an answer
If you’re not coming say now!
You’re putting me on edge
You’re dangling hope in front of my eyes
You’re torturing me dear
I just want an answer
Yes
or
No

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It’s all these words
Cluttering up my mind
All these feelings
Filling up inside

Reach out to me
Tell me how it is
A heart can change so fast

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There are two paths for me.
The light and the dark.
The dark smiles a toothless grin.
The light is an open window.
Between are two figures, surrounded by light.
It is my choice.
My life.

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Only smells of sunshine
Clouds around my head
Feeling of the ocean
Keep me happy here

I wake up wondering what now
Where will I go
I haven’t got a hope in hell
Without my summertime

Days are cold and cloudy
Each thought that crosses my mind
Creates a murky barrier
To keep me down and out

They say ‘no worries
No crying now
No tears upon your bed’
Wake up and smell the flowers stupid

I’m already dead

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Its eyes pierced a hole through my neck
It saw how weak I was
It knew what I needed
Before I had even started I was doomed
A breath and I exploded
It tore me up inside
Ripping and shredding
Claws like a lion’s
Rising out of me like a dragon
Only to prey on life around me
Flowers wilted
Bugs dropped
I caused this
It helped me

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Everything you are
Follows me
Everywhere I go

It’s hard not to see
All the things I am
Because of you

The world keeps turning
Even though you have stopped
Long enough to catch my hand

I follow you
Everywhere you go
Hoping maybe I’ll learn
What makes you, you

I just want to thank you
For never giving up
When it got hard
I know it was hard

I don’t fit in
But I fit with you

I just want you to know
I’m here for you too
Always
And forever

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Rainclouds form overhead
Gather in them
Rainclouds get too heavy
Fall from the sky
Unsuspecting trees below
Drench them
Fall down the leaves of the tree
Splash onto the next leaf
Keep falling
Splash onto the ground
Feed the dry earth
Evaporate into the air
Rinse and repeat..

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Say hello to the summer
It’s here for the moment
Let’s soak in the sunlight
Who cares about melanoma
When you’ve got friends like this

We run through the sprinklers
We dash across the lawn
No cares in the world
How can anyone say this is wrong

My love is here
Far longer than the summer
I’ll sit with you
In your brand new, shiny Hummer

No one loves like we do
In the summertime
It’s so much better
When we don’t have to worry about the time

Let’s dance til the moon comes down
We’ll float up amoung the stars
We aren’t coming down til morning
So don’t take my breath away

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